My Life, My Journey, My World!

better than ever!!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-22T14:31:00.000-08:00

i am a survivor of domestic violance . yes ive been in the hospital in the chicago area sence september now... its been a trying time seeing how mike and stan have lyed to all of my friends and sayd all these crazy things about me. i have been crying alot and seem to have nobody to talk to at times but there is always god...... i have been beetin raped had money stolen took a bus with only 30 $ to my name knowing i would be homeless in the end and was hoping those friends i loved very much would at least be there for me to talk to when i needed them. but i relize they have there own issues too and this was just anouther battle for me to do alone... but im much stronger now than i was. though yes im in a group home with 6 other women who have also been abused. im going back to school and reestablishing my life. i am learning im happyer than i ever was and thats better than anything i ever had before..... thank you god for the amazing strength you've given me i love u soo..

Learning to be a survivor

2009-08-27T06:05:00.000-07:00

Learning to be a survivor.... is never a easy chore.
but you have to learn to turn your pain and anger around
and put it into energy you can use to turn yourself around and tell yourself
your not the problem the problem is with those who attack you and fail to understand..
Forget the past and just stick to those few who do value your friendship more than the others..

thought for the day.

2009-08-23T03:59:00.001-07:00

For today only do not anger,
do not worry.
Be grateful and do your work with appreciation,
For this is Spiritual Awakening.
Be kind to all living things.

In the morning and at night, With hands held in prayer,
Think this with your mind, Chant this with your mouth.
Keep good intentions in your heart.

my spiritual journey

2009-08-19T04:13:00.000-07:00

here i am stranded and alone
i push myself up after I've been shattered
blood in my hands
blood and tears all over my face
my eyes are swollen and bruised
from being punched in my face
but yet i crawl over to the stream
and crawl my way in to the salty waters
i let out a short scream
as the salt from the water enters my skin
burns my eyes
and yet it cleanses the skin
i am week but yet i stay strong
i pull out my sword
and clean off the dirt and blood that has soaked in
after i cleanse my skin i fall to the ground
and try to regain my strength again
i have learnd in this life
i can't trust anyone but myself
the only thing that keeps me strong is my faith
so now i am on a one mans journey
i'm going to become the spiritual warrior i'm ment to be
so i hold my sword up to the stars and the moon and look up to the dead of the night
and say

"my lady and lord
gods and goddess of the heavens above
i now ask of u to heal my body and soul
heal me of my wounded heart not of my love
but of the wounds of the past that have caused me so much fear and sadness.
i ask you to please take my wounds and fears away
and take away my tears and make me strong again...
I will now devote myself as a spiritual warrior to you and ask you to give me strength so i can protect and provide for this beautiful family of mine... i now only devote my life to you & my love Jacquie and her family and may this family be strong together and let nothing break this bond we share.... but with you i will remain strong. let me see the light in this darkness show me the way towards the peace and light... let this change begin tonight and show me what i'm ment to do. so i will fullfill my destined path for you...."

so mote it be
amen

it is the begining of a change
the begining of my spiritual journey has now begun
let me not fail now
but succed

a place called home

2009-08-19T04:01:00.000-07:00

my soul is shattered
ripped apart and torn...
i have been lied to
i have been raped
i have been used and abused..
but yet they still attack
with words or fists...
don't people have any heart ?
i have given up
and my body and soul is yet torn once again...
im done
the only thing left is my heart
and i hold it close
because the only one that deserves it
is quite a distance away
but now i will proudly travel the distance that needs to be traveled
and give her the key
shes the only one that deserves this .
so I'm going to proudly hand over the key
and slowly heal myself again.....
only this time I'm not going to worry about whats going to be given in return
for now i am a wounded solder heading home ......
this is where my heart belongs
a place called home..

something that makes u think

2009-08-02T19:26:00.000-07:00

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids

On a merry-go-round?

Or listened to the rain

Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?

Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

Do you run through each day

On the fly?

When you ask How are you?

Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done

Do you lie in your bed

With the next hundred chores

Running through your head?

You'd better slow down

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

Ever told your child,

We'll do it tomorrow?

And in your haste,

Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,

Let a good
friendship die

Cause you never had time

To call
and say,'Hi'

You'd better slow down.

Don't dance
so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't
last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere

You
miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry
through your day,

It is like an unopened
gift....

Thrown away.

Life is not a
race.

Do take it slower

Hear the
music

Before the song is over.

Unknown

part 2

2009-06-30T11:09:00.000-07:00

today i have cryed many many tears
but im over them now
i am safe for now
soon i will have to find anouther place to go
but for now i am safe
whare i will go i havn't a clue
but in time i will see
i have to be strong
these kids may not be my own
but i have to prove to them i can survive anything
so they to can survive anything too
right now i am numb
because my body is in pain
but mentally im being strong
because i know in my heart my friends
are now my family too...

no longer the victom but the survivor

2009-06-30T11:00:00.000-07:00

yes i am and have been a victom of vilonce
most of my entire life
ive been beetin
manipulated
lied to
emotionaly destroyed
yet i stand today with bruises on my face
and view the things my family has destroyed
all my memorys now gone and distroyed
all these years i have been asking myself why i cant remember
the things that happend to me during my childhood
did i have one at all
its now plain to see
i never really had one
i could never be me
but the point is dispite how angry i am i must move on
they are not worth my tears
the courts will judge them for me
its time to move on
and be a survivor
and no longer a victom to anything anymore

Its sad but true

2009-06-29T02:17:00.000-07:00

dear family
i no longer have any sympathy for you.
you have hurt me with your lies
you have hurt me with your lack of honesty and truth
you have hurt me with your hands and feet
i have bruises thanks to you
in your eyes I'm heartless
but in others i am all heart
what you lack to see
is someone who's been nothing but good to you
you are only repeating what your own family's have done to you
and I'm not going to play this game with you
you can hit me all you want
but i am to numb to give a dam
you can lie to me all you want
because i don't expect truth from you at all
you can play your sick little games
but i will not follow your stupid rules anymore
I'm not who you want
and never will be anything u ever wanted
if any two people were fucking dumb enough to be parents
it would be you
because you have no heart
all you care about is you
I'm parting ways now
so this is goodbye to you
you don't deserve someone like me anyway
because i am my own person
and i don't play by any ones dumb little rules
especially when its not a fun little game
only a heartless selfish loveless pity
for idiots like you....
so goodbye to you
i wont cry a tear
because there are other people out there
that don't think anything of you
but think the world of your daughter
who you could care nothing about at all....
I found love
but it was never threw you
as you don't know how to love at all....
so goodbye to you....
and on to the new life of mine without you...

my life in short. i wrote this in 98 shortly before my foster mother died..

2009-06-21T18:20:00.000-07:00

goodbye meaghan hello akasha rose

there once was a girl named meaghan
who always felt scared and alone
she was mostly in her own little world
as she was so medicated she doesn't honistly remember a thing
the first 13 years might as well have not been of exsistance
she doesnt remembr a thing
several photos of her childhood is in a book
but what she recalls and what her family tells
are but 2 very diffrent things
most of meaghans life you see seemed foged or dazed
she had seizures and was very medicated
but when she cryed she might as well had not existed
nobody listioned
when she was happy nobody cared
when she was angry or upset she was told to go away
so one day she ran away
far away from home..
then one day she met a new friend
who invited her into her home
at first she didnt trust them
she was hesitant to belive what this woman had to say
but with much persistance meaghan followed her into her home and stayed
meaghan hadnt eatin for days
but wouldnt eat because she was very much afraid
but still this woman persisted
and meaghan gave in one day
the woman sayd that child is like a rose hidden still in its leaves
waiting to come out but to scared to
so the thorns protect her
when she blooms she will be something special you'll see
so time went by
meaghan was no longer scared
she was no longer afraid
she had her new family now Akasha Rose was now born
meaghan my dear i have given you your new name the woman sayd
meaghan asked what is that
Akasha Rose my dear
why is that mother?
because your are heavins little rose my dear
you have truly changed you're becoming strong your becoming wise
dispite your pain
you still have a pure heart
Meaghan doesnt fit who you've become
your my little rose.
so through the years this became her name
though meaghan still exsists in a physical sence that is....
but legaly that name is gone
in her mind shes long forgotin
shes blossemed into the woman this woman taught her to be
and now shes told her story to you at this time the brave woman with a heart of gold
is now a woman named Akasha Rose.

oh and just a note this woman was my foster mother just so you know....

souls on fire

2009-05-15T19:03:00.000-07:00

My body is awakening so full of heat,
Longing for the time our lips will finally meet,
Awakening passions inviting you in,
Oh my God,wanting you has became my biggest sin,
I cannot stop this hot burning
running wild through my veins,
The urgent need to take you is driving me insane,
My nipples harden , my thighs are on fire,
Longing and yearning filled with desire,
To feel you upon me to have you moving your hands all around me,
Would have me moaning lost in ecstasy,
To feel your teeth biting into my skin,
Would make me feel so weak as i breathe harder the more u touch my skin,
The two of us moving together with one common desire,
To ignite the passion to set our souls on fire.....

Unknown

let love begin

2009-05-14T20:03:00.000-07:00

Let Love Begin
Take my hand and lead the way;
Tell me all you want to say...
Whisper softly in my ear
all those things i want to hear..
.Kiss my lips and touch my skin;
Bring out passions deep within...
Pull me close and hold me near;
Take away my pain and fear...
In the darkness of the night,
be my beacon, shine your light...
In the brightness of the sun,
Show me that you are the one...
Give me wings so i can fly;
for I can soar when your nearby...
Enter my heart, break down the wall,
its time for me to watch it fall...
I've been a prisoner, can't you see?
Break my chains and set me free...
Strip me of my armor tight;
You'll find I won't put up a fight...
Release my soul held deep within...
I'm Ready now, let love begin.

Unknown

anouther poem i just wrote for jackie

2009-05-13T21:12:00.000-07:00

have i told you lately that i love you
have i told you how you mean the world to me
you are my strength when i am week
you are my wisdom when i can no longer think
when i can no longer see which direction im going
you somehow clear the bath and lead me in the right direction
i didn't belive i was every worthy of love
as my family never really cared
yet you have healed my heart and truly shown me
what love is
and im learning from you
each and every day
you have made me who i am
and you always have the key to my heart
as your the only one who truly completes me
you are my everything
and i will always love you...

new poem... i wrote this last night

2009-04-01T10:18:00.000-07:00

if i had wings
id fly acorss the sky
just to be with you
hold you in my arms
and never let go

i'd sail across the sea
just to stand next to you
and have you dance next to me
as the waves from the sea
crash into our feet
and then sit next to you
and watch the sunset
and have dinner with you
under the stars

i'd hike up these tall mountians
just to see you there and watch the sun go down
with you being there
to guide me down these tall mountians
I'd feel safe with you as my guide

i'd walk a thousand miles to stand by your side
i wouldnt care what the fight was over
but if it was something you really belived in
i would stand beside you and suport you all the way

but thats just the begining
of what i would do for you
and just how much i do love you....

akasha rose

some stuff i wrote back in 99

2009-03-25T16:42:00.000-07:00

wild with desire
my heart starts to run like the wind
i begin to bend my knees
and lean down beside you
as i kiss you ever so gently
and hold you next to me
but i notice you staring deeply into my eyes
for they are the windows to my soul
look deep inside and you'll see
just how much i love you
isn't it obvious
how deep my heart goes
i can't help myself
but what can i do
I'm hopelessly in love with you...

to the one my heart belongs
I've waited so long
for our arms to embrace
hold each other close
and gently kiss each other
while we hold each other so
our fingers gently go
through each others hair
as our kiss gets much more intense
and then we guide our fingers
down our backs
and let our love for each other
take total control
and flow with ease
this is one type of love
we can't just throw back into the sea
it's something we must keep and let grow
as its something so primal
so everlasting
so natural
so real
what it is
is real love.

Circle Of Light

2009-02-27T08:52:00.000-08:00

I've seen the crazyist thing
a circle of light
it's like a maze
it spins round and round
the blue yellow and white
are spinning all around me
its like i was in a daze
and the world was spinning
but it's not what you think
my sixth sence has woken up
once more
it's just cleaning
the bad energy out of my soul
to some i may apear odd for letting them go
but if i don't i'll never truly know
what's to become of me
i've given everything up
i'm starting over again
some people may never know
who or what lays within this soul of mine
but only those that have taken the time
will really know
the real side of me
others wish to know...

Akasha Rose

my goals for the new year

2009-02-06T07:45:00.000-08:00

1 To Truely Understand What Love Really Is! In All Shapes And Forms.

2. To Finally Feel Like I Have A Purpose Here ...Perhaps Learn To Be A Better Mentor Towrds People...

3. I'm Going Back To School. Maybe Not To Get A Degree But To Get Certified In Something Usefull..

4. To Travel Someware And Just Sit On A Beach And Enjoy Life..

5. To Get My Home Buisness To Take Off..

6. To Always Have People In My Life That Think The world Of Me & That Make Me Happy To Simply Be Around Them..

7. To Be A Positive Roll Model To My Nephew John

8. To Always Remind That Special Someone In My Life How Much I Love Her :)

9. To Finally Get The Surgury Done that I've Been Putting Off For Years... ( i'll do this one last thank you lol)

10. To Always Think Positive And Stay Focused On My Goals & Dreams

The Brutal Truth.....

2009-02-06T04:25:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I Think I'm Scared Of My Own Shadow. Truth Is I'm Just Scared Of Anything Anymore. I Think I'm Lost. I Feel Helpless. I Need A Friend A Mentor . Someone Who Can Remind Me Or Help Me See Something Positive About Myself So I Can See The Light Again.. And Push Me In The Direction I Need To Go.. Can U Help Me?

Life!

2009-01-30T19:30:00.000-08:00

Life Lessons By Regina Brett, columnist

Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
When in doubt, just take the next small step.
Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
Don't take yourself so seriously.
No one else does.
You don't have to win every argument.
Agree to disagree.
Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
It's OK to let children see you cry.
Don't compare your life to others'.
You have no idea what their journey is all about.
If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
Everything can change in the blink of an eye.
But don't worry; God never blinks.
Life is too short for long pity parties.
Get busy living, or get busy dying.
You can get through anything if you stay put in today.
It's never too late to have a happy childhood.
But the second one is up to you and no one else.
When it comes to going after what you love in life,
don't take no for an answer.
Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie.
Don't save it for a special occasion.
Today is special.Over prepare, then go with the flow.
Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
The most important sex organ is the brain.
No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
Frame every so-called disaster with these words:
"In five years, will this matter?"
Always choose life.
Forgive everyone for everything.
What other people think of you is none of your business.
Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will.
Stay in touch.Believe in miracles.
God loves you because of who God is,
not because of anything you did or didn't do.
Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
All children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.
Read the Psalms. They cover every human emotion.
Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
The best is yet to come.
No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
If you don't ask, you don't get.
Yield.Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

my poem to jackie :)

2009-01-20T10:19:00.000-08:00

every day, every moment i will love u with all my heart jackie
there will never be a day where i will change how i feel for you
there wont ever be a day whare i will not love you and everything you are
there will never be a day u wont know how much i belive in you
u mean the world to methere is not a worda qoutea poema story or song in this world that will tell u just how much i love u
just remember your not alone
whether it be physically or spiritualy
i will always be there
we need not to fear anything
just hold hands and stay strong
together we will get through anything
just hang on and remain strong
when we come together once again
i will be there for you until the very end
never doubt this magical bond we have
for we share something wonderful
a real love and friendship that will last a lifetime
and thats more than most people get in there life
so let us always cherish this
and remind ourselves just how lucky we truly are

something i wrote back in 96

2009-01-16T20:59:00.000-08:00

Burned
As I stand by these stoned walls
I’m locked up with these cold metal chains
People all around me hollering and screaming
There’s two arrows holding my arms up right
These evil people had shot them into me
The bloods dripping on the ground beneath my feet
As someone stabs a black dagger into my heart
I’m bleeding and I scream in pain
Don’t let me die dear lord I beg of you please
But the blood continues to poor out and drip down to my feet
I slowly tilt my head forward and close my eyes and weep
They take these stakes and put them near my feet
Took the fire from the torch and lit the flames on my shirt
As I scream and burn away
I’m in even more pain now
Yet somehow I wont die once these people are gone
God will pore the rain down upon me
And heal my wounds from this earth and set me free of these chains
So I can go along with my journey
That’s all I need to say
I will travel on my friend
Someday…

Love Is...

2008-11-09T08:57:00.000-08:00

Love is like magic
And it always will be.
For love still remains
Life's sweet mystery!!
Love works in ways
That are wondrous and strange
And there's nothing in life
That love cannot change!!
Love can transform
The most common place
Into beauty and splendor
And sweetness and grace.
Love is unselfish,
Understanding and kind,
For it sees with its heart
And not with its mind!!
Love is the answer
That everyone seeks...
Love is the language,
That every heart speaks.
Love can't be bought,
It is priceless and free,
Love, like pure magic,
Is life's sweet mystery!!

Unknown

More Random poetry.. I wrote This Years Ago ....

2008-11-06T12:09:00.000-08:00

My Love For You Is Undying
instead it continues to grow.
Though we may not be speaking...
I think there's something you should know.
I love the way your hair glistens in the sun
and shines through the summers pouring rain.
I love the way you feel
when you're up close
keeping me warm on those cold winter nights.
I love how you just hold me in your arms
whisper in my ear and make me smile
with every nice loving word that you say.
You make me feel smart, funny and beautiful.
But know my heart belongs to you
and that's all you will ever need to know.
For our love will always continue to grow.
My love for you goes so deep
for every breath and touch of you give me
I begin to shiver...
yet you put your arms around me
and my heart beets faster
I feel warm all over..
For each time I cry
you cry along with me
and share my sorrow and pain
yet you still make me feel strong.
By encouraging me to move on
I love the way you light up the room
with your warm laughter and cheer
and make sure everyone in that room knows
your true to your heart and and that you love me so
it shows when u kiss me in front of your friends
hold me in your arms
and let everyone know how much u love me.
For when we go out on the streets at night
you make sure you hold me close to protect me
But even then my love your the light to my day
even if god shall decide to take me into the pearly gate
Iwill forever be watching over you
as u would with me
and I will be there in the light
to walk with you in the gate of eternity...
So mote it be.

Remind Yourself That You Are Beautiful!

2008-11-06T12:07:00.000-08:00

Sometimes you need to remind yourself....
You can beet that lonely feeling
If you finally be at one with yourself...
And love who you really are..
Remind youself your beautiful...
And smile
Even if it is just to make youself feel better.

Seeds Of Promise

2008-11-06T12:01:00.000-08:00

Seeds of Promise
Golden beams of joy
Illuminate the day
Transform to a fragile flower.
Intricate lacy patterns,
Woven with gossamer threads
of dreams.
Translucent desires,
Visible for those with feelings,
hidden from those with none.
Whispers on the breeze
of promise.
Seeds scatter
cast on the wind.
Spreading wishes and dreams.
Messengers of hope
and renewal.
A promise of new life,
of beginnings.

Poetry-Selena

2008-11-06T11:54:00.000-08:00

OPEN YOUR HEART TO CONNECT YOUR MIND TO YOUR FEELINGS TO SHOW YOUR INNER WORLD...WITHOUT FEARS, BUT WITH FAITH ...THAT THE PEOPLE WHO GET THE PRIVILEGE TO SHARE THAT INTIMATE WORLD...CAN UNDERSTAND HOW SIMPLE IS TO GIVE THE BEST OF YOU TO OTHERS... LEAVING THE PAIN BEHIND IN THE PAST, BECAUSE WE DON'T BELONG TO OUR PAST, WE BELONG TO OUR DREAMS, TO OUR PRESENT AND TO OURSELVES....TO BELONG IS A DECISION A SELFLESSNESS AND ONLY MAKE SENSE WHEN WE CAN UNDERSTAND THAT THE ONLY REAL TIME THAT WORTH ANY EFFORT ANY COMMITMENT IS THE PRESENT...AND THE PRESENT IS ALL WHAT YOU HAVE HERE, YOU MUST GIVE ALL WHAT YOU HAVE TO GIVE....TODAY. WHEN YOU FORGET THE "FUTURE OBSESSION" TO DECIDE TO ENJOY YOUR PRESENT... YOU WILL SOW CONSCIOUSLY TODAY AND DEFINITELY YOU WILL HAVE A BETTER HARVEST IN THAT FUTURE THAT SINCE THIS MOMENT YOU WILL FREE. YOU WILL BE SURPRISE WHEN YOU DISCOVER THAT YOU ENJOY THE JOURNEY OF YOUR LIFE AND DAY AFTER DAY YOU WILL START TO CONNECT THE PIECES OF A LIFE THAT YOU ARE ENJOYING... A LIFE THAT YOU FINALLY STARTED TO LIVE CONSCIOUSLY.

~SELENA~

Lets Dance

2008-11-05T14:17:00.000-08:00

Let's dance tonight as if nobody is watching
we can hold each other close while the night is still young
smell the salty air as the wind gently taps your long soft hair
and the perfume from your skin slowly lifts with the air
pulling you closer and closer as i kiss you gently upon your lips
my arms wrap around you not ever wanting to let go...
as sun gently fades away I hold you close
as we listion to the soft jazz music playing in the background
the ocean waves tap our feet as we dance in the sand
but when the night finally arives
the stars finally arive and light up the sky
a wave gently crashes in and we loose our step
and we crash into the white sand
i lean you back along the sand and start to kiss youu all over
my hands slowly moving all over your soft skin
as you begin to shiver .
but my heart starts to move so fast
so rapidly
i need to come up to breathe
so i come up to surface and gently kiss you again
only this time i kiss you
as if i may never breathe again....

a Poem I wrote for a friend to give his wife....

2008-11-05T07:55:00.000-08:00

So I have finally found someone i really really honistly love with all my heart... I gota admit i never thought i'd feel this way about anyone...And yes i tend to get scared of how i feel about them at times. but i keep smiling everytime i'm around them. I've never felt so beautiful or special in all my life... Though I originally wrote this poem for a friend of mine to give to his soon to be wife... Just MAYBE one day.... I can give "That Special Someone" this poem to later down the road.When we've come to this point in our lives. but until that day im sharing this poem i've writen for my friend to give to his soon to be wife...

if i could have just one wish
I would wish that i could spend each day of my life with you
for without you i am week
you make me strong
without you i can not find a reason to smile
for i have tears in my eyes when you distance yourself from me
or are having a bad day
I cant stand seeing you upset or hurt
your not alone
i cry with you
when you laugh i laugh with you
when you smile i smile too
each night before i sleep
i ask the great spirit to watch over you
for i know we are what seems like a world apart
but i know we will make it through
we will see each other face to face
and ether be laughing with giant smiles on our faces
or be shedding tears of joy in our eyes
ether way all of this will be worth it in the end
just belive
I love you more and more each day
flaws and all
you are still beautiful to me
smart as can be
and you have a heart of gold you ware on your sleeve like i do
thats why i know in my heart we were ment to be
for we wont do anything to hurt each other
we will be each others knight
protect each other when the other feels week
take care of each other when the other is ill
be there for each other for each living day
and be suporitve of each others dreams
remember we are a team you and i
i will always be there for you whether were neer or far
no need to worry
I love you
nobody will ever take my heart away from you
as nobody diserves to be treated like a queen more than you
I am giving you this ring
as a promise to you
whether were neer or far i will always be there for you
i will be your friend tell the end of time
help you achive the dreams that seem impossible for you to achive
as i know you will always do the same for me...
this is my promiss to you
i shall love
honer
cheerish
each and every day i have being in your life
you've taught me so much in the little time i have known you
you've opened my mind
my heart
my spirit
i would have never been so sencitive to things
or be as strong as i am if it wernt for you.
you might say you've just been there for me
you've done more than that
you've shed a light into me that i thought was long forgotin
this is why your the only one wothy of my heart
I love you
but it goes far beyond this poem or what these simple words can say
just dont break this heart of mine
I would be lost without you.....
I love you far more than these simple words can say
you are my everything........
when u see me face to face you will see it my eyes
and the soul will speak to you when my words alone wont come through
thats just our secret
you will see even through my eyes
just how much i love you
until i see you again
I say goodnight
Ti Amo!

11-4-08 a day I shall always remember....The Beginning of a New America..

2008-11-04T22:04:00.000-08:00

Today my friends I have witnessed a miracle in itself. Today I have seen a country that was falling apart make a decision that would change America’s outcome for the next 4 years... today Obama became America’s next president. Not only that, he got just as many electoral votes as Johnson did in the 60's . I have to say for my generation Obama has made history. Not just for the fact that this is the first black president ever in the U.S.A. But for my generation at least he is the JFK & Martin Luther King of our area...to all the young voters out there that never saw JFK or Martin Luther King but in history books. Now our children, our grandchildren will see a new history in the making when they look at what our generation has seen. I have to admit I have seen some amazing things in my life. but I gota say out of all the presidents I’ve seen in my life carter, Regan, Bush Sr., Clinton, Bush W. even... I believe these next 4 years will be not only be history in the making . But slowly become what America is meant to be... United States of America.. Maya Angelou once wrote a poem ( which is also in my blog) " These states are not yet united." Well, I think the time will come where this Untidiness will finally arise. Granted there will always be the racists who didn't vote for him because he wasn’t white, or the people who didn't think he could make it, or the people that just didn’t care to listen to someone who was different even. But I hope within the next four years these nave people see. Not only did he achieve what they never thought was possible. But prove to them that he can unite this country and really turn this country back around to the great country the world once saw us as... To most countries though the U.S.A will always be the power leader.. but do to our last president I think we've had allot of these countries question what our country is about....I know of a few people who didn't want to come into this country because they wanted to see who would be president next.. They were scared to come here only to be apart of broken country. I myself was ready to give up everything I had if McCain had honestly won. As I honestly don't think that man would have helped this country at all . I was ready to ship off to another country. But now I’m happy to say I think this country will be United once and for all..... The next 4 years will be simply be the beginning of a New United States of America...... So now we can only wait and see. What the new America will be.

i was venting when i wrote this... this is old..

2008-11-04T08:37:00.000-08:00

Shedding tears from sadness
tears from pain
though i apear happy
in the inside i am sad
i would love to say i'm smileing
but for the moment i'm just to mad
i lay hear on the ground shedding out my tears
breaking limbs from trees from anger
i've burryed in my soul for so many years
but now is time to cry and shed all these tears
that have been burried withen me for so long
i'm tierd of the games
i'm tierd of the lies
its time to take care of myself
and learn to spread my wings and fly
perhaps one day
i will have people all around me
who will love me for who i really am
and not need to spare my feelings
and just simply be real
as i am with them
but for now this tree is now broken
i've planted the seeds
and its time to rebegin
I'm simply starting over again.....
With My Friends Me , Myself & I
Can u prove to be worthy of them?

What Is Love??

2008-11-04T08:27:00.000-08:00

what is love? it is not what the other can do for you or what u can do for them... love is being able to love someone unconditionaly and accept the fact whether they would rather be your friend or your partner in this so called world and loving them unconditionaly ether or way....
i personaly would rather die knowing i had loved my best friend for life respecting they never wanted a intimate moment with me than to never loved at all....
to me that is the ability to love completely with no shame...

Not for Those who aren't Into BDSM LOL You've been warned

2008-11-04T07:50:00.000-08:00

Life As A Slave.....My Story....* Fantasy*

Hello My name Is Jewel I Live Inside My Night Club The Crows Nest In New Mexico.... My Mistress Jade and i have lived together now for over 7 years. We run the crows nest together . The crows nest is a small underground club where people like us can mingle with others who love bondage and the BDSM lifestyle.... Jade and I are both bisexual woman who are committed to each other but bring in other partners into our household now and again for sheer entertainment.... I am a slave to Mistress Jade but now and again when we bring men into our home and we both play the dom. role for sheer reason i refuse to be a slave or servant to any man . Though here are a few exeptions to that. But i'll explain that much later. Jade and i work as a team when men come into play. However woman just make me week to my knees and i need a strong woman preferably dominate because i don't mind being told what to do by a woman . in fact i love it . it gives me direction now and again and sometimes i need that... Now your probably asking why we live in our club... well truth is we live above it... on the outside you just see what appears to be your typical 2 story New Mexico home.... below it is where we created space underneath you'd think there was nothing there but a dirt road... but look very carefully to the back of the building... Do You see the skeleton over to the right? He has a sign in his hands saying enter at your own risk with an arrow pointing to what looks like a old pipe stair handle...go over to it and look below whare the stone walls are & u will find a doorway that leads to the club.... its a trick of the eye really.... but if you know the area well that's the entry way to the crows nest..... now let us begin the journey and i will introduce you to my home.....

Its a thurday night and at the crows nest tonight there is alot of activity tonight.... Tonight my mistress assigned me to be in the cage which i dont mind. It's one of my favorit spots in the club to be... course there will be nights i may be sitting there for hours before anyone has the balls to come into the cage with me. as my mistress is very picky about who comes into the cage when i'm in there. For good reason mind you. she doesnt like people doing things to me she didnt give them permision to do in the first place. so whoever comes into the cage must know the rules well and follow them or there is a big price to pay.... like loosing out on club privlidges maybe? ah its more than that but let us go on.... this cage is so sexy.... it was built by some friends of ours back in the day when she and i had just met...the cage is maybe as large as a king size bed and about 7'5 feet tall... not very big to some to big for others maybe.... but this cage was perfict... it had bars u could sit on, chains and velvet rope all around it.... chains heavy enough whare someone could easyily tie your hands and feet and pull u to the top of the cage if they wanted too.... or just tie your hands to the posts and chain your feet to the ground... to some this may be horifying... but to me it was awsome...... now that cage is in our club mind you.... and i have been sent to it tonight... this man who has come into the cage tonight knows my mistress and i well. His name is Silverwolf. one of the natives down here in New Mexico... He knows the rules and knows what the punishments are if my mistress finds out hes not followed them. as i've seen him get brutaly beeten for not listioning to her before.... he's got a scar on his back from when he was hit to hard one day by misstress jade... she didnt feel sorry for him though. but he was in pain for days after that.... So he knows not to misbehave now that she and i are the owners of the nest... Tonight i notice he's brought in some rope....some very fine silk rope.. at first glance you'd think it was the type of rope sailors use to dock there boats.... but this is a very fine white silk rope strong enough to do whatever he desires.... but i know his routine all to well... he has me stare him right in the eye and he leans over and kisses me i put my hands together and hand them out for him to tie my wrists together and then he ties me up to the bar handle and runs his fingers all over me.... rubs my skin with baby oil and uses just his hands..... he runs them all over me and gets on his kness like hes worshiping the ground i'm on.there are tears in his eyes .you can tell he wants to do more to me than just rub lotion on me and tie me up. But u see he's very much afraid..don't get me wrong when he and i are intimate with each other its a rather deep sensual kinda sex. But it drives him crazy knowing he cant nearly drive me as crazy as my mistress can.. The way she touches me sends shivers through me... i can orgasim just with her biteing me alone.... i dont know what it is.... but it makes silverwolf very jelous.... so he trys his very best to drive me crazy.... for the moment silver is just massaging me which is nice.... But It looks like hes in trouble again.. Jade is coming over to the cage now . silver trembles and leans back against the wall... Silver how many times do i have to tell u this girl doesnt want you.... She belongs to me.... Stand back & step aside and let me show you what this girl realy needs..........
To Be Continued......

just random poetry

2008-10-31T23:58:00.000-07:00

The first time we met,
I knew I had a friend.
The thing I did not know is
that I would want to
love you until the very end.
Your precious love
has turned my life completely around,
I feel like I'm walking,
but my feet don't seem to touch the ground.
Sometimes you seem to be
my shinning light
guiding me through the long, dark night.
As I lie alone in bed
thinking of you and yet
I wonder if you think of me too
as one more night slowly drags by.
I wish I were there with you,
kissing your sweet lips
under the pale moon light,
and holding you, so very tight.
You really are the woman of my dreams
and I can't wait to be with you,
for the rest of my life.
I know our time away seems like an eternity,
but I'll wait forever to be in your life.
I love you,
I need you,
I want you,
and I will for all my life.

thankful

2008-10-31T23:39:00.000-07:00

Today, I am thankful to be alive.
Thankful that I have four silly animals
That love me unconditionally...
Today I am thankful
That I am not paralyzed
Though I am paralyzed emotionally still in some ways
I am grateful it is no longer a physical issue...
Today I am thankful
That I have learned once again
To remain strong when people
Around me try to hurt me with hate
Jealousy and anger
I no longer let them
Paralyze me with fear
Or paralyze me with sadness
Instead
I mute them out with my ears
And just walk on by
Though in there eyes I am being selfish
But in my heart I am being strong
By keeping positive thoughts in mind
Today I am thankful
That the goddess has sent me here on this land
Not only to learn new things
And remember things from my past
But to teach others the ways of the old
And to have them remember the one important thing
That the only person we need to be true to is ourselves
Friends come and go
Family eventually passes on
Lovers don't always remain faithful
And don't always stay with us forever
As temptation and lust usually always
Take them away
If the trust itself hasn't been already broken
Today I am thankful
That my life has changed
I have met new people
Learned new things
Become more spiritual
And have achieved some
Impossible dreams
Today I will set new goals for myself
And once again
Try to achieve the impossible
So today I am thankful
To just be living
And to simply be me

woman of her own words

2008-10-31T23:20:00.000-07:00

As i stand upon these tall rocks
along the shore of the sea
I stretch my arms like wings
and let the wind come beneath my feet
i take pride as i gaze up into the sun
and see the beauty of its light
I love how the rays of light
touch the water of this giant mysterious sea
thank you god for letting the spirit of the earth
be apart of my whole world
for i love it so
and thank you for giving me
the strength and wisdom
to live my life the way i should
i relise i am not like many other people
for this is a unique gift
i may not be smart at everything
but i am wise
i may not appear to be as old as my words
but let that knowledge and wisdom I speak
that i love and care for
become stronger and wiser
when people need guidance
i may not be as beautiful as the moon and stars
in the night sky
but i am beautiful in my own special way
ether through my words
wisdom
strength
knowladge
or just the way i am
i am my own unique person
and that shall never change
even as i grow old
but i do not wish to be rememberd for being a writer
or an artist
i do not wish to be rememberd for my beauty
or my health
i want to be remembered as a woman of her own words
nothing less & nothing more....

Oneness

2008-10-31T23:07:00.000-07:00

Spring turns into Summer
Summer into Fall
Fall Into Winter
And Winter Into Spring.
And So is the way of life.
Things Are Always Changing
It's up to us to accept them
Whatever they are
And go with the flow
Because with change comes
Knowledge
Pain
Sorrow
Wisdom
Fights that we've won
Battles we've lost
For with each change that comes
We ourselves grow
So accept change
Know matter what fears you may have
Because friends come and go
Are family ushally parts ways
We need to allow ourselves to be
Both teachers and studants
When we can be both of these things
We go far beyond
What we poosibly think
We can accomplish in our lives
So accept change
And be one with yourself
Do what is best for you
And feel the oneness
Withen yourself
With a special friend
With nature
Be one with the oneness
Once again
And you will see
What the oneness can do for you....

Off With The Old.. In With The New...

2008-10-30T09:44:00.000-07:00

Today is the start of a new begining

its time to renew my soul

and start my life in a new postive direction

I'm giveing up this pointless job

and leaving this family

that ovbiously doesnt care

try to understand me

Off With the old in with the new

at least when i start my life again

i will have someone who loves me for me

my circle of friends will become more my family

and i can always count on those

who have been there for me from the very start...

I'm getting rid of anything that reminds me

of sorrow and pain

and keeping those few things

that mean the world to me....

Thats all I can ask for

nothing less nothing more...

Surrender....

2008-10-30T09:32:00.000-07:00

Today Dear Lord

I am going to walk onto the war zone

Up to the top of these hills whare the battle is

And surrender....

My life in short

Has been like a roller coaster...

Has many hillsTwists & Turns....

Gone in many circles...

But today I am Surrendering...

I'm putting down my sword

Throwing down my shield

My heart has been shattered

Like glass

Thrown and shatterd

Into millions of little pieces

I do not know how long I can go on

With this battle of mine...

I'm in need of some real honisty

A Loyal Friend

Someone I can give my heart to

And not watch it be broken again....

So I'm surrendering my heart to you

Find me someone I can trust

Love

Surrender my heart too

Someone who will protect me

Love me for who I am

And be careful of this heart of mine....

But until that dayI need you to take care of this heart of mine

So I can be once again

The warrior I am meant to be.....

Last Pedal

2008-10-30T09:27:00.000-07:00

Perfect as a rose pedal
Watch as it endures
The blooms fight for their life
As they are surrounded by knives
For what they know best
Is the blossom of their hearts
They live in the moment they open
Hopes to achieve, reside in their minds
Pedals come and pedals go
Stop to watch as they appear
Appreciate the colors and smells
Learn from them while they are here
For they will disappear
No more chances do they get
They cannot be forgiven
For they must open and if they don't
It is the end
Some will arise to the occasion
They are beautiful in every way
Every chance they get
To send sweet aroma in the air
To fill the days with colors so fair
But the life is short
Because they opened, they must fall
The fall to death
Conscious of the life they lived
Are they successful or
Do they suffer in agony
as the last pedal falls

Angel Of Fire

2008-10-30T09:09:00.000-07:00

Angel Of Fire

I See You Walking To Me

In That Long Silk White Dress

Your Dark Hair Dancing In The Wind

The Flames Around You

Seem To Shine Through Your Hair

You've Come Into My Life

With What To Gain?

I Can Give You My Heart

I Can Give You Unconditional Love

Be Forever A Loyal Friend

Protect You

Respect The Beautiful Goddess That You Are

But I Know You Don't Expect Much In Return

So I'm Offering You

My Heart

My Soul

I Love You

I Promise You This

I Will Walk Beside You

On This Long Road Ahead

Side By Side

Wharever This Path May Take Us

Tell The Very End Of Time..

Praise of the Goddess

2008-10-30T09:05:00.000-07:00

I send out words in praise of the Goddess
I send out words in praise of the Goddess,
from whom all worlds flow.
Mystery of mysteries, this continual creation,
like a fountain forever bubbling up from the Earth's darkness,
she is a cup that is never empty.
Generous One, eternally giving gifts,
I pray to you, I praise you,
I remember you throughout my day.

- Ceisiwr Serith

For My Friends! :)

2008-10-30T08:59:00.000-07:00

Today… I need a little lift
Today… I need to shed some tears
Today… I need a little encouragement
To remind myself the friends I do have in my life
Do indeed love me just the way I am…
Today… I need to remind those people in my life
That I do love just how much they mean to me..
Today… I am telling you this I Love You….
You Mean The World To Me…
I value our friendship
I value our special bond we’ve come to have
I value the fact that you and I can tell each other anything
And we tell each other like it is.
I Value the fact that you and I are similar in so many ways
But our differences seem to only help us become strong and wise…
So I’m letting you know I’m going to be your friend for life.
Whether we are near or far apart.
I will always be there for you
Wherever this path may take us.
I’m going to honor each moment we share.
And I hope this bond we share will only deepen the more I get to know you…
But I just thought I’d tell you in these small words
How much you really do mean to me….

Like Sun

2008-10-30T08:55:00.000-07:00

Like Sun I watched the sun with its wings of gold
paint the tops of the drying hills
so that every grass was left in an orangy hue.
I knew then what it was to pull out from within
the will to create, for once to listen to the shouting
of myself telling me to paint my life red,
no longer hesitating to take that sudden stroke
and make my world like sun.

Tapping Into Courage

2008-10-29T22:18:00.000-07:00

Tapping into Courage

Many of us, maybe especially we women, are conditioned by society and other forces perhaps, to be a certain way. There are specific acceptable ways within our families and communities that we are supposed to behave. We may not even think of these specific expectations consciously, but we know the rules, and most of us, at least publicly, play by them. One of my heroes is Henry David Thoreau (born 1817- died 1862). Thoreau always seemed to march to his own drummer, no matter how wildly unpopular he was. Most of us are frightened to death of being unpopular, maybe because we often interpret unpopular as unworthy and unlovable.Thoreau was jailed in the 1840s after refusing to pay taxes because he would not abide by the government's Indian Removal Act. "His observations were based not on some philosophy he had read or heard, but on his own direct experience of feeling the outrage of conformity, and seeing the horrors of how Native Americans were being treated by the white man. He knew that the popular practice of removing Indians from their lands was our very own Holocaust." (Wisdom of the Ages: 60 Days to Enlightenment by Dr. W. Dyer, 113)It is said that Ralph Waldo Emerson, a great friend of Thoreau's, went to visit him in jail. Emerson asked Thoreau, "What are you doing in there?" Thoreau retorted "More importantly, what are you doing OUT THERE?" Thoreau was challenging his friend to be more courageous and to stand up for what he knew to be right. In today's vernacular, Thoreau might tell Emerson to "grow a pair!"In the movie Annie Hall, the character Annie ponders how she would stand up against the Nazis. Woody's character laughed and said "Are you kidding? They would take your credit cards and you'd cave." How do we as a society and individuals stand up to support others? I humbly challenge all of you

(especially myself) to do at least one courageous and loving thing that you know you must do.

Love and Courage To All of You!

www.simplydivinesolutions.com

Quotes For Today!

2008-10-29T13:32:00.000-07:00

Do not brood over your past mistakes and failures as this will only fill your mind wiht grief, regret, and depression. Do not repeat them in the future.--Swami Sivananda

Understanding can come only at the appropriate time, and no one can say when. All that can be said is that the understanding cannot come so long as there is expectation, so long as there is a "me" wanting it.
Balsekar

It is a common characteristic of human nature that a man sees the faults of others more easily than he sees his own. At the same time on the path of self-study he learns that he himself possesses all the faults that he finds in others. In order to see himself in other people's faults and not merely to see the faults of others, a man must be very sincere with himself.
G. Gurdjieff

It is best if you stay in your intuition - if you rely on what you feel and, even though it may not make logical sense, operate with trust. Impatience is a trap for many of you because you feel you need to move somewhere.
Barbara Marciniak

" A Mother is neither cocky nor proud, because she knows the high school principal may call at any minute to report that her child has just driven a motorcycle through the gymnasium."
Mary Kay Blakely"

I'll not listen to reason.... reason always means what someone else has got to say."
Elizabeth Gaskell

If you want your life to be more rewarding, you have to change the way you think.
Oprah Winfrey

The real power behind whatever success I have now was something I found within myself - something that's in all of us, I think, a little piece of God just waiting to be discovered.
Tina Turner

Success is liking yourself, liking what you do, and liking how you do it.
Maya Angelou

Without friends no one would choose to live, though he had all other goods.
Aristotle

A strong positive mental attitude will create more miracles than any wonder drug.
Patricia Neal

Imagination is more important than knowledge...
Albert Einstein

Do not protect yourself by a fence, but rather by your friends.
Czech Proverb

You can make more friends in two months by becoming interested in other people than you can in two years by trying to get other people interested in you.
Dale Carnegie

If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude. Don't complain.
Maya Angelou

Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.
John Lennon

My philosophy is that not only are you responsible for your life, but doing the best at this moment puts you in the best place for the next moment.
Oprah Winfrey

Your time is too precious to be sacrificed in wasted days combating the menial forces of hate, jealously, and envy. Guard your fragile life carefully. Only God can shape a flower, but any foolish child can pull it to pieces.--Og Mandino

These Yet To Be United States

2008-10-25T21:24:00.000-07:00

These Yet To Be United States

Tremors of your network cause kings to disappear.
Your open mouth in angermakes nations bow in fear.
Your bombs can change the seasons, obliterate the spring.
What more do you long for ? Why are you suffering ?

You control the human lives in Rome and Timbuktu.
Lonely nomads wandering owe Telstar to you.

Seas shift at your bidding, your mushrooms fill the sky.
Why are you unhappy ? Why do your children cry ?

They kneel alone in terror with dread in every glance.
Their nights ["rights" ? - Schrift nicht lesbar] are threatened daily
by a grim inheritance.

You dwell in whitened castles with deep and poisoned moats
and cannot hear the curses which fill your children's throats.

by Maya Angelou

RECOVER YOUR HAPPINESS

2008-10-25T21:14:00.000-07:00

RECOVER YOUR HAPPINESS A-Z

A--Accept
Accept others for who they are and for the choices they've made even if you have difficulty understanding theirbeliefs, motives, or actions.

B--Break Away
Break away from everything that stands in the way of what you hope to accomplish with your life.

C--Create
Create a family of friends whom you can share your hopes, dreams, sorrows, and happiness with.

D--Decide
Decide that you'll be successful and happy come what may, and good things will find you. The roadblocks are only minor obstacles along the way.

E--Explore
Explore and experiment. The world has much to offer, and you have much to give. And every time you try something new, you'll learn more about yourself.

F--Forgive
Forgive and forget. Grudges only weigh you down and inspire unhappiness and grief. Soar above it, and remember that everyone makes mistakes.

G--Grow
Leave the childhood monsters behind. They can no longer hurt you or stand in your way.

H--Hope
Hope for the best and never forget that anything is possible as long as you remain dedicated to the task.

I--Ignore
Ignore the negative voice inside your head. Focus instead on your goals and remember your accomplishments. Your past success is only a small inkling of what the future holds.

J--Journey
Journey to new worlds, new possibilities, by remaining open-minded. Try to learn something new every day, and you'll grow.

K--Know
Know that no matter how bad things seem, they'll always get better. The warmth of spring always follows the harshest winter.

L--Love
Let love fill your heart instead of hate. When hate is in your heart, there's room for nothing else, but when love is in your heart, there's room for endless happiness.

M--Manage
Manage your time and your expenses wisely, and you'll suffer less stress and worry. Then you'll be able to focus on the important things in life.

N--Notice
Never ignore the poor, infirm, helpless, weak, or suffering. Offer your assistance when possible, and always your kindness and understanding.

O--Open
Open your eyes and take in all the beauty around you. Even during the worst of times, there's still much to be thankful for.

P--Play
Never forget to have fun along the way. Success means nothing without happiness.

Q--Question
Ask many questions, because you're here to learn.

R--Relax
Refuse to let worry and stress rule your life, and remember that things always have a way of working out in the end.

S--Share
Share your talent, skills, knowledge, and time with others. Everything that you invest in others will return to you many times over.

T--Try
Even when your dreams seem impossible to reach, try anyway. You'll be amazed by what you can accomplish.

U--Use
Use your gifts to your best ability. Talent that's wasted has no value. Talent that's used will bring unexpected rewards.

V--Value
Value the friends and family members who've supported and encouraged you, and be there for them as well.

W--Work
Work hard every day to be the best person you can b e, but never feel guilty if you fall short of your goals. Every sunrise offers a second chance.

X--X-Ray
Look deep inside the hearts of those around you and you'll see the goodness and beauty within.

Y--Yield
Yield to commitment. If you stay on track and remain dedicated, you'll find success at the end of the road.

Z--Zoom
Zoom to a happy place when bad memories or sorrow rears its ugly head. Let nothing interfere with your goals. Instead, focus on your abilities, your dreams, and a brighter tomorrow.

A Poem By. Helen Steiner Rice

2008-10-25T21:10:00.000-07:00

How often we wish for another chance
to make a fresh beginning.
A chance to blot out our mistakes
And change failure into winning.
It does not take a new day
To make a brand new start,
It only takes a deep desire
To try with all our heart.
To live a little better
And to always be forgiving
And to add a little sunshine
To the world in which we're living.
So never give up in despair
And think that you are through,
For there's always a tomorrow
And the hope of starting new.

A Poem By. Helen Steiner Rice

This Life....

2008-10-25T20:34:00.000-07:00

I am not here in this life to prove
That I am rich or poor
I am not here in this life
To play games with foolish people
Who think there better than thou..
I am not on this planet to be
Judged nor be judged.
I am here to be both a studant & teacher.
To love and be loved.
Be the shining light that others seek
When they need to get through the darkness
And need a partner in there life
To get through the darkness
And shine into the light of eternal life....

The Ten ( NEW) Commandments!

2008-10-25T20:28:00.000-07:00

The Ten (New) Commandments!
1- Thou shall not worry, for worry is the most unproductive of all human activities.
2- Thou shall not be fearful, for most of the things we fear never come to pass.
3- Thou shall not cross bridges before you come to them, for no one yet has succeeded in accomplishing this.
4- Thou shall face each problem as it comes. You can only handle one at a time anyway.
5- Thou shall not take problems to bed with you, for they make very poor bedfellows.
6- Thou shall not borrow other people's problems. They can better care for them than you can.
7- Thou shall not try to relive yesterday for good or ill, it is forever gone. Concentrate on what is happening in your life and be happy now!
8- Thou shall be a good listener, for only when you listen do you hear ideas different from your own. It is hard to learn something new when you are talking, and some people do know more about certain things than you do.
9- Thou shall not become "bogged down" by frustration, for 90% of it is rooted in self-pity and will only interfere with positive action.
10- Thou shall count thy blessings, never overlooking the small ones, for a lot of small blessings add up to big ones.

Strong & Wise

2008-10-25T13:12:00.000-07:00

tis time for me to make a new change.
change myself for the better
I've decided in order to make myself a better person
i need to be a mentor to others
be a positive person and motivate others to be strong when they are week
i've decided to be a inspiration
and use my story of strength to help others become stronger themselves
that is my goal now
and i shall do that in my writing, speach, and even in my music
and i pray that these words from my story will inspire others
so now the story begins
i must continue to be strong and wise....

Eyes

2008-10-25T12:54:00.000-07:00

When eyes talk, no word is spoken
Yet the heart understands
The whisper of silent glances
When eyes talk, no sonnet is written
Yet the mind can read the invisable poem
Scripted with tender care
When eyes talk, no music plays
Yet the body orchastrates to a symphony of passion
When eyes talk, no dance is stepped
Yet emotions swing to the soften beat of desire
When eyes talk, no others hear
Yet the message is audible to the one whose eyes were intended
When eyes talk, magic fills the air
For within a look, a world unfolds
To quieten hopes and dreams
Only those with secret wishes
Can understand the language
When eyes talk, and hearts listen