my spiritual journey

here i am stranded and alone
i push myself up after I've been shattered
blood in my hands
blood and tears all over my face
my eyes are swollen and bruised
from being punched in my face
but yet i crawl over to the stream
and crawl my way in to the salty waters
i let out a short scream
as the salt from the water enters my skin
burns my eyes
and yet it cleanses the skin
i am week but yet i stay strong
i pull out my sword
and clean off the dirt and blood that has soaked in
after i cleanse my skin i fall to the ground
and try to regain my strength again
i have learnd in this life
i can't trust anyone but myself
the only thing that keeps me strong is my faith
so now i am on a one mans journey
i'm going to become the spiritual warrior i'm ment to be
so i hold my sword up to the stars and the moon and look up to the dead of the night
and say

"my lady and lord
gods and goddess of the heavens above
i now ask of u to heal my body and soul
heal me of my wounded heart not of my love
but of the wounds of the past that have caused me so much fear and sadness.
i ask you to please take my wounds and fears away
and take away my tears and make me strong again...
I will now devote myself as a spiritual warrior to you and ask you to give me strength so i can protect and provide for this beautiful family of mine... i now only devote my life to you & my love Jacquie and her family and may this family be strong together and let nothing break this bond we share.... but with you i will remain strong. let me see the light in this darkness show me the way towards the peace and light... let this change begin tonight and show me what i'm ment to do. so i will fullfill my destined path for you...."

so mote it be
amen

it is the begining of a change
the begining of my spiritual journey has now begun
let me not fail now
but succed