my life in short. i wrote this in 98 shortly before my foster mother died..

goodbye meaghan hello akasha rose

there once was a girl named meaghan
who always felt scared and alone
she was mostly in her own little world
as she was so medicated she doesn't honistly remember a thing
the first 13 years might as well have not been of exsistance
she doesnt remembr a thing
several photos of her childhood is in a book
but what she recalls and what her family tells
are but 2 very diffrent things
most of meaghans life you see seemed foged or dazed
she had seizures and was very medicated
but when she cryed she might as well had not existed
nobody listioned
when she was happy nobody cared
when she was angry or upset she was told to go away
so one day she ran away
far away from home..
then one day she met a new friend
who invited her into her home
at first she didnt trust them
she was hesitant to belive what this woman had to say
but with much persistance meaghan followed her into her home and stayed
meaghan hadnt eatin for days
but wouldnt eat because she was very much afraid
but still this woman persisted
and meaghan gave in one day
the woman sayd that child is like a rose hidden still in its leaves
waiting to come out but to scared to
so the thorns protect her
when she blooms she will be something special you'll see
so time went by
meaghan was no longer scared
she was no longer afraid
she had her new family now Akasha Rose was now born
meaghan my dear i have given you your new name the woman sayd
meaghan asked what is that
Akasha Rose my dear
why is that mother?
because your are heavins little rose my dear
you have truly changed you're becoming strong your becoming wise
dispite your pain
you still have a pure heart
Meaghan doesnt fit who you've become
your my little rose.
so through the years this became her name
though meaghan still exsists in a physical sence that is....
but legaly that name is gone
in her mind shes long forgotin
shes blossemed into the woman this woman taught her to be
and now shes told her story to you at this time the brave woman with a heart of gold
is now a woman named Akasha Rose.


oh and just a note this woman was my foster mother just so you know....